THOU SHALT NOT TAKE IT AWAY ! 「あぜりあ」本八幡・西船橋・津田沼・佐倉
TO ALL OF MY BELOVED FRIENDS, READERS, AND BLOGGERS IN JAPAN !!!
Greetings to every one of you as I begin my very special day with you. Yes. Today is our special day to be together. Our Saturday Blog Day. But it is extra special for me because besides getting to spend time with you and share my thoughts with you, today is also My Birthday and I am so glad to be able to spend a good part of this day with you, my beloved readers, bloggers, and friends. I do so hope you will enjoy today’s blog. If you are counting, it is #110 which also means something. I was born on the one hundred and tenth day of the year. Again, enjoy.
BLOG: #110: THOU SHALT NOT TAKE IT AWAY !
Today, as you all already know, is MY BIRTHDAY. And to be perfectly honest, I had actually no intention to talk about it in my Blog, but now I see that I have no choice. I have to talk about it. But I am not writing about my Birthday today to brag. It is being written to explain my feelings.
And that is A LOT different from bragging.
Oh yes. I am very proud today to be the age I am. That is because I was not sure I was going to make it. I mean, I really had my doubts. And boy were they ever BIG.
In fact my doubts were SO VERY BIG that last year on my Birthday, I started counting down the days until this one. At first it was easy to do because today’s Birthday was so far away. I mean, I was counting down to ONE from three hundred and sixty-five. And I never missed a day, I tell you.
But then as the day got closer, something happened. I was going through all kinds of things filled with stress and other things that I wanted to take it all back. I suddenly did not want My Birthday to come. Let it not appear at all and I could die at the age I was like it or not. I would die young. Fine.
Even on My Birthday Eve, last night, I was not really myself. The horrible, hateful, doubts were back again. I could tell they were from the way I was talking to my lady-friend on the phone. I was angry. Yes. I was angry. My Birthday was just hours away and once again, I did not want it. I wondered what I could do to make it go away but unfortunately, I had no answers. I was stuck.
My Birthday Eve was winding down rapidly. Was there no hope for me? Was there nothing I could do to make the age I couldn’t wait for and was counting down to and was so very excited about, just GO AWAY and be forgotten? Oh Yuck! Please! Please! Please!
I no longer wanted to think about it so I went into my bedroom, laid on my bed and did a puzzle from my Puzzle Book. And snacked on some Trail Mix. The Spicy Kind. And THEN………
I looked at my Phone Clock.
It was MIDNIGHT. THE DAY HAD CHANGED.
It was 20 Aprile.
And suddenly, I felt good. All the stress and bad feelings were gone.
And I suddenly thought, I am the age I am now. The one I have waited a whole year for. I am the age I am and if something were to happen to me now, this age can not be taken away from me.
For a year, it is all mine.
My Readers, Bloggers, and Dearest Friends……are you wondering what that is?
It depends on how well you all have been following my Bogs.
I was married and became a Widow at age 45. So my forties are gone.
My fifties are too. How sad when time goes so quick.
I have out-lived my parents, great uncles, and great aunts, uncles, and lots of other people including my stepson. And my husband and rest of his children, save one unless something has happened that I do not know about. When it comes to my Maiden Name, I am the last of my Family Line.
My youngest friend who is in the Military, will be twenty years old soon.
I have been writing all my life. From when I was a girl-child.
I began blogging in my late sixties.
And now THEY are gone too. And I am still writing.
So now you must know how old I am because I have said ALL.
Today is 20 Aprile.
Today I am SEVENTY.
And PROUD TO BE SO.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
Your Dear, Adorable, And Sweet,